Wednesday, April 27

I spoke to Peter last night. After spinning, I called Rikke, asking her for advice on what the hell to do. After a lot of "Wow, you're having a hard time!" we agreed that it would be the best idea, to just tell him exactly how I feel. The second after I hung up, I called Peter and asked him to meet me immediately. First; I couldn't say a single word. I just couldn't make myself say something. He was cold as hell, so we went inside of the block. I then said; "I got good and bad news, which do you want first?"
He said that he wanted the good news first. I then said; "I want to be with you."
"But you can't?"
"No no, that's not what I meant. I want to be with you! I have to be with you. We're together."
"Then what's the bad news?"
I had to say it, there was no way back; "I've never lied to you. When I wrote you in Italy that I was in love with you; I really was. Keyword being 'was'. When I'm apart from you, I miss you like mad and I feel like I can't sit still unless I'm with you. But when I'm with you... I just don't feel it. My heart doesn't beat extra strong and I'm not all giggly and stuff."
And you know what he said?
"I feel the same way."
So now I've stepped back a bit in surprise. He feels the same way! I mean! I'm speechless. I never saw it coming. How can he say he's in love with me, if... Argh! It just puzzles me. Anyways, I have to be in school in five minutes and I'm not even dressed.

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