Friday, November 5

A Chance!

I do have a chance, says Húlya. The same girl who yelled out "Stop fooling around, I swear you're going to start dating soon!" in German class. We went to Copenhagen today with our I.T class. On our way, I spoke to Andreas, as I think he's very sweet and funny - everything but my type. Really. I'm not attracted to him in that way. Anyways, I spoke to him as he was the only one I could really relax with on the trip. IN Copenhagen, Húlya and the girls start teasing us with the same 'oooh-you loove each other' crap. Húlya says to me, "What are you doing? You're flirting with 2 guys now! Him and Martinez!"
I tell her gently that just because I speak about the language German with Andreas, it doesn't mean we're getting married - I then prove that, by talking to Morten - they all know I'd rather get screwed by a chainsaw, than marry Morten. I then admit that I am flirting with Martinez. It was like they already knew. Weird.
In the train, on our way home, I went to sit by Húlya. I asked her if she thought I had a chance with Martinez. She said yes. I don't know why, really. She just said that 'we spoke well to each other' and I excused myself by telling her that he spoke well to everyone. She shrugged it of.

I heard her story. Her story about her boyfriend who got married to someone else. Very romantic, not a thing I could ever combine with Húlya. I got to see her from another view today. She wasn't my classmate, she was my girlfriend. It was really nice.

Lea doesn't think I have a chance. Well. I asked her - and thereby also told her bout my 'obsession' with Martinez. I pretend not to like him, though, but it's obvious that I do. It's now leeking to the entire school and I just hate it, hate it, hate it. I'm getting into the same Lasse-Mehmet character and I hate being that annoying teenage-girl that I once come to realise that I am.

Oh, it's too confusing. All I know, is that when I'm near him, I want to be nearer. I need to give him a hug, I struggle not to when I see him. I want to hold him, I want to brutally snog him! No, honest, I want to be as close as possible to him. I never had those 'urges' with Lasse or Mehmet. Is Martinez different from them? Or is he just this year's crush. How will things look in 2 months?
I saw him 8 hours ago, and I already miss him with all my heart. It's dead-annoying. He's the one reason why I would rather be in school than at home. It's scary, isn't it?

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